It’s something that’s extremely stressful, but you don’t really hear many people talking about it. Then you start obsessing about that – “Oh my God, this is going to happen” and it doesn’t stop… it can be hours, it can be days. It’s a very morbid thought to even have at that age. And this is a very young age. I’m thinking if I make the bed a certain way that my grandma’s going to die or something. I remember thinking that if I played with a certain toy it would cause some tragedy to happen and I would obsess over it. For years I never really knew what it was called. I’ve had this since I was six and seven. There are people who have had a quick thought about maybe harming their child and then they get so distressed about why they have that thought and to the point where get so bad with their guilt and them obsessing over the whole thought they might not want to watch their children or be around their children, because it can get so bad for some people. Why would I do this, would I do that? It’s just a passing thought, but you obsess about it in a way that is very unhealthy. Sometimes you get angry or distressed of why would you even have this thought? It builds into what does it mean that you had this thought. A lot of times you’ll have a thought about a person that you love or people that you know and then you’ll feel immense amounts of guilt of how would I think that. For example, we all have passing thoughts in our head, like, “Okay, maybe I should jump off this fucking bridge or something.” You think it for a second, its weird thoughts, but you might be cutting an orange or something and be like, “Oh, if I cut my finger…” It’s just random thoughts we sometimes have in our heads, but when you have pure O, you will have a thought like that and then you obsess about it where you start questioning why you would have this thought in the first place. With pure O it’s just when you have intrusive thoughts, and you obsess about the thought over and over again. I have a form of OCD called pure O you don’t have any external compulsion, like you’re not going washing your hands repetitively or you’re not like someone with OCD and have to do something type of physical thing, like touch the door knob a couple times and stuff like that. I will say for people who have listened to it, I have had pretty positive reception from the beginning, but most people probably don’t know the back story. Most people are just criticizing things that aren’t even music related and then they don’t even give it a chance most people. Stormi: The problem is that most people are not even listening to it. What can you tell us about this song that people might not understand or might not comprehend the first or second time they listen through this or watch the video? The new video and single “Pure O” under the band name Cinnamon Babe is out. Toddstar: Well let’s talk about the music stuff. Stormi: Yeah, just in dealing with the music stuff. It sounds like you’re busy through the week during the day. Toddstar: Stormi, thank you so much for taking time out. As a black woman, an ally of BIPOC and the LGBTQ+ community, and most of all, a survivor, Cinnamon Babe is Maya’s vehicle to tell her truth.” We get Stormi herself on the phone to discuss new music, shedding her past, and much more… The Bronx native, who grew up on bands like The Cranberries and would later find inspiration from the rebellious voice of acts like Rage Against The Machine and Linkin Park, has come a long way to make this dream a reality. According to a recent press release: “CINNAMON BABE is an LA-based nu-metal outfit led by model, actress, and outright hustler Stormi Maya.
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